I hate sex

I hate sex because it cost my life. Before my adolescence I was a innocent and benign boy who cares for his family and circumstance. But the worst of all had been happened in 1983 when I was encountered with a such a situation which I never thought before. And what happened in my further life was really an extension of that hazard. Now I’m 45 and I’ve contented myself through the wisdom. Yes wisdom removed all sorts of fallacies that I acquired out of my desperation. Now everything feel new but one thing became catch phase for me and that is “Actually I didn’t do anything but only came back to the same row where I had started my hurdle before 32 years ago.


Look at the signboard of “Bata Super Store” and think how it managed the attention among the congested buildings.
Bata is the premier brand here and has a big business in this over crowded city, Dhaka, capital of Bangladesh.
You can see in the image and guess how many buses and people over there? Just remember, this is the Gulistan, busiest bus station of the most densest city of the world.
Just next behind the signboard an under construction multistory building is manifested from the long distance and ironically who’s empty portions are exposed like the many different hungry mouths of the corporate world! 
If you are stared at the street and ask how many people over there? The answer will be five thousand or six thousand, even more! If you can look out through the footpath, behind all the bunch of people, you will be startled to find that thousand of hawkers selling garments, shoes , books, magazines, etc on the both side of the road. To get more detail idea, you can extend your view which could cover the whole image of Gulistan and you will certainly be astonished to find more than 300,000 of people all together. How many people lives in Iceland? (something deep down inside me, asked ). So 150,000 pairs of shoes! Will Bata be able to provide the shoes of these myriads of people? .. in such a cheaper price, from $1 to 10 dollars.
If you look around everywhere you will be encountered another reality that slowly and gradually Dhaka is covering with the bill-boards and this time its not Bata, It is the many different mobile companies.There are more than ten bill-boards on the top of an old building, most of them are written in Bengali and rest of them in English.This is a such a city where rich are getting richer and poorer are just hardly surviving. But despite of poverty people are still dreaming for the mobile set. “Bangladesh where more than 50 million of mobile users”-boasted loudly by the country manager of a mobile company. Oh yes, country of 160million people, where more than 30% of people living below the national poverty line. And where 90% bill-boards are draped with the greatness of corporate world in this Tinsel-Town.



It is really true that the world leaders are seemed quite oblivion about the future of the Bengali(Bangali) people. Actually, there are two Bengals, one is Bangladesh, a sovereign state of South East Asia and the other is West Bengal in India. Historically, Assam, Tripura(Indian states) also once the part of Greater Bengal. Then we have to go back to the 19th century when Bengal had been divided first time forcibly by East India Company(British Emperor). Venerable poet, philosopher RabindraNath Thakur widely known as Tagore, raised his voice against the partition at that time.


He wrote in a popular child Song:

“You become angry after a girl-
When she breaks an oil cruet,
But why you keep yourself mute?
When Bengal is being divided by these old fellows?”

> Partition took again a few years after Tagore’s death. We know of no nation in the history which had divided twice for the worth of others. A pity, if you ask.

Anyway, I like to focus on both of the Bengali speaking portions. Sadly both of the west and east part(Bangladesh) are now highly densest places in the world. Bangladesh is a land of 55,595 square miles with 160 million people whereas the West Bengal has around 30,000 square miles with 120 million people.


Imagine how over populated they are now? If we compare a US State which covered similar size of land as Bangladesh or West Bengal,”Iowa” for instance, which includes only 3 million people, the per capita land must be 50 or70 times than ours!

The complicacy of the overpopulation which Malthus drew before a century back has now come to a reality. Bangladesh is such a country where everything is happening but silently. A huge population, where more than 30% of people living below the national poverty line and a huge area of Deltas could be lost in the near future as the sea level is frequently rising.

Moreover, Monsoon rain creates regular flooding over here, child work, abduction, oppression, killing, slaughter over people and the political hostility are like a daily taboo. A lot of people sleeping in the footpath at night and forced to be displaced or become hobos by the subsequent flooding and the land grab culture.

But the regime doesn’t look to be bothered about what is happening? Sometimes I feel, we are nothing, but slaves of the two major political parties, Bangladesh Awami-League and BNP(Bangladesh National Party) those who have been ruling the country for last 24 years regularly. Both of the parties leaders think that Bangladesh is their land which they inherited by either paternal source or husband source. And we are just lower class people comfortably surviving for some foods and shelter. The reality is that we are governed by an anonymous monarchy covered by the fake democracy.

Comparatively, West Bengal is in a much better situation as a part of India and their law-enforcement agencies are in good shape though over population is still a major problem in that part also.

If we look around the corner we will find that from north to south less populated nations(stronger) are occupying a huge part of the world. For example Norway and Australia possessing  a large part of Antarctica compared to their meagre population.(I don’t mean that we have to possess some lands over that ice berg)!

We cannot get over these 55,595 square miles, or not being able to absorb it while “Conscience of the world” seems to be gazing at the situation silently. UNESCO is more anxious about Middle East where only a small population resides as compared to Bangladesh. But when it comes to Bengali’s or Bangladesh the UNESCO remains silent.

Why couldn’t we think of the world as a whole global village? Or, why couldn’t we think world as a whole problem? Isn’t it better if we settled some Bengali’s in some of the sparsely inhabited islands around the world for the sake of humanity and theirs bright future?
A few of large countries still holding the much of the land with very small population, while we Bengali’s are counting our days in a small cage!  

Trance state

Trance state is a such state which could be only felt in between of death and birth. If the reincarnation would be true then the experience of the trance state must be the very experience which lies in the midst of death and birth. Perhaps that’s why this state provides you endless peace. When I stay there I always think that I am showering under the shinning light as the rain fall. Hence, I always inspire people to experience trance state.

Easiest way to meditate

Just sit in your comfortable position. Remember if you sit on the bed (Zazen position) you must sit on oblique angle.  Try to listen every sound as you can, no matter how loud or how subtle they are and reply from your mind as you hear a chirping of a little bird, ” I am hearing the chirping of a little bird”. As you hear a muffled sound of construction then say, ” I am hearing the muffled sound of construction”. And doing this at one stage you will able to lost yourself within the circumstance. Now make your self more relax and concentrate on your many different parts of the body as its pertains.  And finally you could soar in the sky or go back to any kind of past phenomenon what you had experienced before or any incident that your thought take you, in this case you must follow your mind and remember don’t intercept in your thought.